♥time does heal wounds but eventually leave scar in your heart.

31 December 2011 { 02:11 }

its 31/12/11; last day of 2o11. well, started this year soso, with my o's results out. i still rmb i took my results from mryuen, then didnt dare to look at it, fearing that i'll fail or whatever. i told God to gimme some courage, then finally i looked at it. i saw that i had 2 As and rest Bs. okay next, my As were A2s. okay.. was hoping for certain subjects. but thankfully there's no 5/6 (C5/C6). that moment i'm like, i passed my a math? :O then i looked at the subjects. GOSH NO JOKE, A2 FOR COMBINED HUMANITIES WHEN I SCREWED MY PAPER?! wow. half disappointment, half unexpected. then i calculated. dang, 14points r4, 17points r5. i cried. quite badly. re-arranged my future path. hoped for it. submitted my choices. dang again, on the JAE results day, i'm like WTS @*%&@*(#&@*( I'M IN NYP?!?! so damn far from my house. got into Medicinal Chem in NYP. my 6th choice i think? was so troubled. thank God for xinyi, pei me go SP walk walk, see scores. wanted to appeal to SP. then end up cannot. so i'm like, okay, God you decide where You want me to go. i appealed into Molecular Biotechnology in NYP. and dingggg i got in. and so, i moved on from Central, to NYP in PolyDINS. wasnt that bad. still trying to fit in till now. but i guess its all God's plan. seriously.

then came FO2o11! was kinda excited & nervous at the same time. its like, dk what to expect, who are your new classmates etc. came with huifang. realised that we're in different classes. had a sad face. then i told God, give me courage strength and whatever i need in my class. most importantly, Your presence! &i walked into the sports hall. went in, sat down. one minute later this girl walked in and sat beside me. her name is Kangling! :D so yeah, tada! my first new friend in poly! she's a really great friend, and sister to me. a God-sent angel in my poly life. she encourage me, pray for me, be there with me, makes me laugh. whee~ :D oh anw, then back to FO. sat round a circle, thats when i got to take a GOOD LOOK at my new classmates. okay honestly, i wanted to see mainly the guys. opps. HAHA SECRET EXPOSED. anw, found out that there's seriously VERY LITTLE GUYS in my class. not even one is shuai. okay got kinda average looking ones. then there's this idiot sitting at the opposite side, staring at my direction and laugh! idiot. his name is Chong Wei Jun. :3 oh, i think my class only got like 2/3 average looking ones, at that time. gradually i knew their names. Omesh is the more buffy type. but not my cup of tea. not bad looking though. then, Wei Jun! omg. *FACEPALM* okay la i thought he was quite average looking alr. one of the more shuai ones. but he OVER FRIENDLY. well, and for hairstyle? i like KaiQiang's hairstyle the most, at that time. hehe okay secret exposed. the girls, KaiHui is the most pretty. actually, i think my class girls on average all quite pretty leh. *inferior self out* LOL. ._. yeah lor. then after the whole FO, one point i got was, our class guys are brave people!! yay!! :D yup. and from the 2nd day of FO onwards, i was texting weijun the whole time. ._. man! but seriously those days were amazing. LONG smses, never ending topics. look at now! nothing. ._. idiot, i send him long msg he reply so short. sigh! *faints*

yup. so far poly life is okay for me. just that i've to buck up on my studies. and stop being such a slacker. :( and in poly, idk if its part of God's plan too, i'm together with weijun^^ though the road hasn't been easy. trust me its not easy. but i guess when God's been there with me, He pulled me through and told me i'm not alone. even when i'm faithless, i doubt, God is still God, He still loves me for who i am, He listens & He gives me whatever i need to carry on. from 23/o6/11. alot of things happened, even before we're together too. but i wanna give my best in this whole relationship thing. i realised, we're helping each other to grow. when something is wrong, we talk it out. compromise here and there, like not be so stubborn. sacrifices are made, definitely. but boy i pray that whatever i've done wont be in vain. i appreciate you so much, i learn to cherish too. through the quarrels, i learnt to depend on God more, for strength, for wisdom, sometimes just rely on Him, let God take the lead. and also through quarrels and disagreements, i've learnt to gradually change to be a better girlfriend for you, a better person, and learn to accept each other's differences. i hope that you wont give up on us. i know i've been a wilful, stubborn, hot tempered, and kinda attitude girl. but thanks baby, for not giving up on us.♥ lets both hold on, & believe that we'll make it through despite everything. and hopefully, prayerfully one day, you'll be able to attend services etc & serve God tgt with me consistently! jiayou baby, dont give up. :) dk anything can ask me or justin, whoever you're more comfortable with. really. i may not know alot of things, but i'm trying and growing. yayyyyyyy~

loveyou so much hermeschongweijun.♥ :D really appreciate you so much. :')♥

&to everyone who has been with me through thick and thin, be it believer or not.
xinyi, yuwen, kangling, eugenia, & lots more, i appreciate you guys so damn much! seriously. if not for you guys, esp xinyi, yuwen & kangling. ♥ love you guys so much! seriously!♥ for listening to all my rants, how i feel etc.. :D
as for my mehmeh aedy, thanks for being so tolerant with me, for being so patient with me. i know i havent met you for formal shep for a long long time. really really sorry, i really do appreciate you as a goodfriend (: putting aside the church stuff, you're an awesome friend! no i'm serious. you listen to me, even though you're older than me. you listen you talk to me about some stuff too... i may not be good enough, but i'll try. do tell me how you feel about me or whatever k! really, just tell me your opinions :D ♥ yup! :)
for reb, sorry for not opening up to you much. am trying, but sometimes i find it difficult to talk to you. perhaps its the personalities bah. but you're a really nice friend, if putting aside ministry. :) yeah. thanks so much! :)

well will end here. my eyes, its giving up on me. damn pain. :'( cyas people.

PS. baby, i love you, & i pray that we'll last till the end of time hehehehe.♥ HermesChongWeiJun, 23o611.♥ :D thankyou so much, baby, for everything you've done for me. really appreciate it.♥ :D